Digging Deep

I'm FAT! There I said it. It's time I really owned it. I don't mean cracking fat jokes etc... I mean no-kidding-look-in-the-mirror-and-open-my-eyes own it. The truth is there, I've just been in denial. I am squeezing into clothes that don't really fit and so don't look good on me. I have rolls where there should be taught firm muscle. I have orange peel where smooth skin should be.

I'm done with it.

I really had an epiphany about it this weekend. I finally got so disgusted with myself on Friday because I think I realized it is affecting more than just me, it is affecting my husband too. It's not fair to him, but mostly it's not fair to me. I NEVER wanted to be my mother, but here I am overweight and fighting the battle to loose it. Well consider everything I have said before to be a prelude to now.

I am tired of disappointing myself. I am tired of talking a good game but not following through. So, inspired by Lynette's post this week, I am throwing down the BS flag and calling an end to it.

Saturday was a new day. Wednesday is a new day. I am truly doing this. I am making this contract with myself, and I am sharing it with you all as well.

I, Dara Young, am making the following promises to myself:

1. I will put myself and my needs before others wants;
2. I will love my body;
3. I will treat my body as it deserves to be treated, feeding it healthy foods;
4. I will believe I can live and be healthier;
5. I will NOT diet;
6. I will NOT be lazy; and,
7. I will be the best person I can be.

Should I fail to live up to these promises or break them in some way, I will rededicate myself to these principles and try twice as hard. There will be tough days ahead. Days I don't want to exercise, or I don't want to skip the cookies, but I will pull these promises to myself out of my purse and look at them. If at that point I still am okay with not doing something or eating something I probably shouldn't I will live with that choice. Hopefully I won't. Hopefully I will smile and remember that I love myself and I deserve to look and feel better.

I challenge you to make a promise to yourself. It doesn't have to be a weight loss promise. It can be anything. But make the promise. Write a blog post about it and leave a link here or just post your promise to yourself in the comments. Make it mean it and I promise I will be asking about how you are doing with it in the future. So go ahead, what's your promise to yourself?